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(Sunday, October 31, 2004-)
+10:32 PM]*
# Listening to: Slayers Gorgeous - Surrender to River's Flow-
Back from chalet! It was tiring, but fun. Spent the past 3D2N at Costa Sands, Pasir Ris. Really glad to catch up with the rest and just talk. And I happened to learn of some pleasant and unpleasant facts as well. ^^
Was talking to several of the SGLs and somehow, they all asked me the same thing. And surprisingly, their sources pointed back to the same few people. I'm quite surprised how there is such subtle change to the fact in the story. So, I've decided to clarify once and for all.
Yes, I don't deny that there is someone else now. But I didn't end my previous relationship because of this someone. That's the part that has been changed through the gossiping and it become very opiniated. I cannot deny that I don't mind, because I feel that this info became opiniated to suit other people's point of view. Anyway, it's funny that they would come to me, and then drag me to some place and whisper to me the same question over and over again. Heh. But I'm glad that they actually came to me and hear my side of the story as well. It takes 2 hands to clap, afterall. I don't like bing misunderstood, and those who've heard my side of the story are more than welcome to hear her side of the story. I just wanted to clarify my side of the story.
There were several other reasons, according to those who came to me, which I somehow agree to an extent that it may have contributed to the breakup. Till the day before the chalet, I was still hesitating whether to go for the chalet or not, but now I'm glad I went, cos I've found out the sources as well as what info were changed. I remember one of the IS modules I took, which I can't recall, taught about how facts can be distorted and becomes opiniated. Now, I think I can fully understand this point.
May said something right. You can't blame anyone for this. Maybe it's my fault, maybe it's not. Nope, I don't blame anyone, because this is what happens in gossiping. But whatever it is, I'd like the info to be as factual as possible. Certain events may have attributed to the distortion somehow, but no, it's not because of a third party. The '3rd party', so as to speak, only came in after everything ended. I never like being misunderstood, even though I've already graduated and technically, it should no longer concern me. But I think I don't want my friends to misunderstand me because of what they hear from others. And again, I really appreciate those that actually bothered to come to me and hear my side too. Most of them were neutral towards this, much to my relief.
I know what's going around, so please, don't distort it further. And yes, I'm referring to everyone that knows
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(Thursday, October 28, 2004-)
+7:33 PM]*
# Listening to: Gantz - I'm In The Mood For Dancing-
phew finally done changing Hazel's blog layout. ^^;; Was supposed to teach her how to do it last night, but my mum switched the modem off, and so, I made it up by helping her change the entire layout, including the tagboard style. Heh. Hop over for a look.
Boring day. Woke up at around 1.30 pm I think. I'm really addicted to Risk Your Life. It has such a resemblance to Lineage II, though the latter had better graphics.
Tomorrow's the chalet, but I can't seem to find anyone who knows what time to meet and where. Therefore, I've decided that I shall not go tomorrow. Maybe I shall just go for the BBQ on Saturday, if I finally know where and what time it starts. I'll probably skip it if I can't locate the place by tonight.
Off to wash dishes. Later.
P/S: I need to look for a good hosting site for pictures. If anyone have any good sites to recommend, please inform me about it. Thanks.
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(Wednesday, October 27, 2004-)
+11:06 PM]*
# Listening to: Mayday - Ting Bu Dao-
I really like the lyrics of this song. Somehow suits my thinking at this moment. Hmm..
I've had quite a rough day. Felt incredibly ignored. Best thing is, I hate my life now. *sigh*
2 months, I shall wait. For what? It's a promise. A promise I must keep. You know, looking back, I realised there were many promises I made, but couldn't keep. Many things I said, but did not do. It's understandable that people dislike me for this. It hurts knowing the people who dislikes you are those closest to you. A contradicting life I have. I have no idea who is true to me, and who is showing me a mask, covering their dislike towards me.
I missed the days when I could just hang out with my friends, messing around, being friendly to everyone I see. But nope, I've grown past that stage. I'm more conscious to what others think of me, and slowly, I've drifted so far apart from them. Very very far apart.
It's the same in all forms of relationships, be it friendship, romance or family ties. I have no idea how to feel towards them, or what to feel. Numb, I guess. Very numb.
60 days, counting down.
EDIT: Basket, Can't view Chinese. >.<
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(Tuesday, October 19, 2004-)
+7:17 PM]*
# Listening to: Jay Chou - Jiang Jun-
whoa, so much happened since my last entry...both good and bad I guess...
Woo-hoo! I'm getting retrenched from IRAS! This Friday would be my last day of work officially. Heh. IRAS is mass retrenching the part timers working there for some reason which slipped off my mind, but in other words, we are of no use anymore so off we go. XD Time to find another job, I guess. Anyone got part-time job to recommend?
Quite sad to leave IRAS, really. No more messing around with my 'family', no more dozing off during office hours without getting caught. No more this, no more that. But well, I needed the break anyway. Sidenote: The air-con is so darn cold! -_- Been sneezing non-stop for the past 2 days already. I'm beginning to feel like a running tap.
I just got 'My Sassy Girl' from my mother, Katherine. Heh. I like this Korean movie very much, though I'm more of a Jap person than Korean. I'm gonna catch The Cool guy as well, probably next week or so. Faz has been promoting her 'peanut guy' for the past few days. :lol:
I'm finally having my project presentation this Thursday! The chance of graduating is finally here, so please, wish me luck. ^^;; I don't wanna qualify for the Long Service Award (Silver). Mic got gold and I don't wanna compete with him at all. =P
I guess I should clarify this before rumours start flying all over the place: I've broke up with Minghui, after a 10 months relationship. I feel tremendously guilty for breaking the news to her now, and I'm sorry. It's of no use, I know, but I still wanna thank you for the wonderful times we had and the memories. Perhaps someone better will come your way. I wasn't suited for you afterall...I hope we can still be good friends...
*sigh* Back to singlehood. Oh yes, I've received an announcement from a person of great importance. Here it is: "If you really must warn people, just tell them not to say anything really libellous (like so-and-so is having an affair or so-and-so cheated people of money etc)."
Don't ask me who, cos I'm not supposed to reveal his/her identity. XD
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(Monday, October 11, 2004-)
+9:08 PM]*
# Listening to: Nothing-
God, I'm suffering from some kind of viral infection of something...been puking and having diarrhea since morning...feeling terrible...-_- just seen the doc and he mentioned it's a viral infection, since I don't have constant abdomen pain, food poisoning is out...
T_T I'm gonna waste another $48.75 tomorrow for not working....*sigh*
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