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(Friday, January 31, 2003-)
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phew...taking a rest frm my spring cleaning now...supposed to go bowling with leroy they all today but *sigh* my room is so messy i can hardly believe it...took me more than 1.5 hrs trying to clear the mess...-_-;;
gonna hav to do the enormous pile of laundry later on...and vacuum the floor too...and mop it...and change my hamsters' saw dust for the new year...(yah...they need some spring cleaning too u know...) then prepare for steamboat~ yay~!! wahahaha yum yum...
to leroy, cherie, marcus, ewan: sorry sorry for flying your aeroplane at the last minute...a whole load of stuff to do...but hope u guys enjoyed urself...
alright...back to spring cleaning...-_-;;
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, January 29, 2003-)
+11:34 PM]*
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had a great day today...went to discuss my sab project with ryan, liying and reb...after that went upstairs to play table-tennis with the gang...haha very fun...had a lot of crappy jokes...was worried i couldn't cut my hair...then reached causeway point at 9.15pm and decided to give it a shot...and yay~ i finally cut my hair...in 15 mins onli~ that's fast isn't it...but it's $12...darn...
Odin: oi dun let me see u in my blog ah!! hiak hiak...haiyah juz kidding lah...but pls hor dun link my blog frm ur blog...thank u bery much...coz if u wanna link my blog muz be 2 ways...i link urs then u link mine...if not then it's NO WAY ok...
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, January 27, 2003-)
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dr koh: (to ryan, leroy and me) ok give me a guy's name...
me: hmmm...
ryan/leroy: eugene!
dr koh: ok give me a girl's name...
the gang: (in unison) ah xue...
-_-;;
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, January 26, 2003-)
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after much thinking...i hav decided...no i'm not gonna juz forget abt her...i'll continue as wad we are and wait till she's ready...(i hope...) thanx guys for the advice...and i still dunno who's the anonymous person that did not leave her name...but hope u and ur guy will end up together some day...=)
do i sound desperate? i think i sound like that don't i? but well...i'm not...i think...hmmm...ok maybe i am...or maybe not...erm let's not ponder at this...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Saturday, January 25, 2003-)
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things to do:
-do the laundry
-change saw dust for hamsters
-pack my super duper untidy room
-work...
alright i'm gonna work and work and work...haven msg her since thurs...am i stupid or wad...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Friday, January 24, 2003-)
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today was ok...stoned in the morning...stoned in the afternoon...stoned in the evening...now still stoning...after effects after last nite i guess...i need to do something...keep myself occupied...someone help me...ok i'll start working non-stop...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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+12:27 AM]*
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ha ha ha...i finally got the courage to ask her to be my gf...and guess wad...ha ha ha...she rejected...as i expected...she told me she wasn't ready to get into a relationship...
i dun think i wanna fall in love again...coz it always turns out bad...coz i'm such a dumbo in love...
this was so different frm wt...i had the courage to tell her this time...on my own...and she liked me too...but things weren't meant to be...is this some kind of cruel joke...*sigh*
i'm gonna go play games...take a deep breath, exhale and everything will be alright...rite...
so then...what's next in life? nothing good i guess...
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, January 22, 2003-)
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why did i not grab hold of the opportunity when it came...why did i regret things onli when it's irreversible now...why did she nt tell me her feelings before...why did i onli know of it now...why...
i'm feeling such foolishness...that all these are plain stupid of me...are things irreversible now...i think so...should i let her go...i dunno...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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+12:38 AM]*
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alrighty~ finally know abt the gigs to come and all...gonna hav a couple of upcoming performances in feb...think the closest one would be on 8th feb...i'm not sure of the details but will post it here soon...so the backstage supporters do come k? (cindy dear, lianne and all the others...TNTC)
cherie so desperately wans to learn bass guitar...but doesn't wanna buy the bass guitar...emman give her one lah =p
started to think abt her recently...someone asked me "wad if things turn out different frm wad u expect?" and honestly for that moment i didn't know wad to reply...this is one of the few moments in my entire life i cannot say i'll juz move on...coz i know i'm lying to myself...yet at the same time i'm not sure...lianne told me her experience on a similar situation...of coz she was the female lead and the male lead was unknown...she said , " i didn't want to tell him no, just in case i changed my mind, but i didn't want to say yes, cos i wasn't that interested either.." somehow i've been thinking whether she's thinking like that too...girls...you juz cant understand them...
my dad's trying to make some oat for my sick mum and ends up burnt...lolz...but hey he's a good cook most of the time...well considering he doesn't cook much...hmmm...
the song l****(censored to protect his identity) composed keeps ringing in my head...argh~ gonna post it here...(is it safe? hmmm...)
Untitled
****** wans ** *** to be his (censored to protect both identities)
but he thinks she'll give it a miss
if you really wan things to grow
let it snow let it snow let it snow
now that the season is over
so he has to wait one year
if u really want things to snow
let her blow let her blow let het blow
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, January 21, 2003-)
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heard that i was slammed with lots of stuff...didn't know until this afternoon when the girls told me abt it...ok then...let's clarify a few things...
1. that apology and comment is for constance
2. the comment was written after the sound check and before jam x
3. i nv said i play the guitar well and i dun deny ur guitarist is good...but specially for this case:
(i) i think my standard is all i need to play some simple songs for praise and worship
(ii) thanx for ur offer but i'm not really that desperate
4. i'm not tone deaf
now that it's clarified let me say something...
darius:
i dunno u well and u dunno me well...if u wanna find a target to vent ur frustrations then get one of ur closer frens...i'm a blunt person and i'm not afraid of being blunt...and let me tell u this...things dun go ur way all the time...same for me and everyone else...u hav to know this one true fact: life is unfair....that's why we hav a just God...the original replicas made it not becoz of me...i would admit that...coz my skills are mediocre...i would say the honour goes to daphne emman reb and of coz jeremy for guiding us...but i know we did our very best and we hav justified our actions...
i'm not gonna slam u with all those f*** words coz i dun like them on my blog...and i dun believe in that word...but let me tell u this straight...i'm not sayng these words becoz of wad we achieved but even if we didn't get in i'll juz get disappointed and move on in life...wad's the use of scolding me for saying she went out of tune? it was juz a comment like "hey u had a mistake in ur presentation" or "u gotta brush up ur skills" does that mean anything? it was juz a comment...and wad do u achieve for slamming me? nothing...in return u obtain sin...anger...is it worth it? ask urself this question...i'm saying this becoz u and i believe in the same God...the Lord of all...
that's abt all i hav to say...i think...i onli pray that u'll be able to see thru this frm another point of view instead of being clouded by anger and frustration...the main point i'm driving thru is all these amts to nothing..u gain nothing and i lose nothing...u sin and i juz move on with life...honestly ur comments aren't enough to make me go red...coz maybe becoz i didn't see the post...the girls briefly told me the contents...which is nt really nice...
to everyone who defended in a way or another: thnx a lot...and jas dun gek too much abt it...i got slammed remember? not u...chill chill...i didn't even blow up...but thnx aniwae...
and i would really like to see that long post for slamming me...anyone can show me? the whole thing...not bits of it...
"But the fruit of the Spirit is: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control..." -Galatians 5:22
"my dear brothers, take note of this: everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry" -James 1:19
these 2 verses strikes me whenever i am angry...i hope they speak as rhema word to u too...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, January 20, 2003-)
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oh...i forgot to mention lianne among the backstage supporters...ok dun kill me k? it juz slipped off my mind...=)
the story ends like this;
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+2:29 AM]*
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ok there's a few things that i muz do before anything else...
to constance and all who are offended: yeah sorry abt the previous post...didn't mean any harm...it was a comment that i entered during my high period...(the yeo's chrysanthemum tea) but no excuses...i'm sorry...
btw i finally remembered her name is constance...having poor memory nowadays...
the original replicas(boss, daphne, reb, emman):thanx guys...u guys hav been great for the past few months...the jam sessions we had and all...it's been a great experience for me...thnx for giving me that experience...
the gang(leroy, jen, jas, cherie, hushie, cus cus, and also neil and ryan who were nt there and ewan who didn't know abt this) and those who supported us(backstage and frontstage, cindy dear): hey thanx for the support...u guys are the best~ i dun think i could hav gone this far without ur support...thnx a lot...*hugz*
jing: thank you thank you and thank you so so so much for ur guitar...couldn't do without it...i really owe u lots and lots..
Report on JamX
it's been hectic...i had to meet my mei, jingna, to borrow her guitar for the gig...felt guilty having her to bring the guitar all the way to meet me...sorry jing...after that went for sound check in my ah beng shirt, which got slammed the moment i arrived...but nvm abt that...performed sound check and went back home...then met up with jing again and took mrt together but she alighted at novena to get something frm her dad...so i reached youth park before her...felt a bit nervous but hey being the thick skinned freak i am it all amounts to nothing...
went on stage and played...2 of my meis came to support me (jing and mei qi)...the gang also came and cherie tried so hard to take a pic of us...still remember her facial expression...was hoping to see xue but didn't see her ard so was a bit disappointed initially...came down and walked towards the tables...and a familiar voice called out for me..."ah xue!" ok that wasn't wad i said but yah...u can imagine my feeling then...and it so happened that she arrived juz when i started playing...phew...she made it at least...her fren cheered for us too...
so then packed the guitar and jing came along...returned her the guitar with lots of thanx...(and until now...thnx again jing...i really owe u big time...btw did i mention i luv ur x japan sticker? =p)and leroy erm well complained(tried thinking for a more suitable word but no words lah...) abt dinner..."it's 8 already and no dinner?!) haha oops...=p
went long john's and talked ard for a while...then we started tallking to the auntie working there too...she said "be nice to a lady ok?" referring to cherie...the problem is...she's not a lady! *dodges flying knives frm cherie* ok ok cool cool...juz kidding over here...
walked ard orcard and accompanied leroy for his supper...onli 2 hrs after his 'dinner' which he claimed wasn't dinner at all...sometimes his appetite juz somehow frightens me...-_-;;
reached home at ard 12...dead tired and zombified...but overall it was a very great experience for us...and received the jamx results too...i think every band and person who participated in jamx deserve a huge round of applause...*applause* it's been entertaining and fun...i believe everyone tried their best...i really like the music by the ELT cum Do as Infinity cum Glay band...sounds so j-rock...cant remember the band name...was juz before lunchbox i think...
btw to the original replicas: marcus asked if we wan to perform at his father's club...his father gave the green light already...and if u're thinking of money, we're NOT getting paid...(of coz..it's like "duh") so u guys get back to me if u wanna try it out k? it'll be on a sunday...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Saturday, January 18, 2003-)
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today's gonna be my big day! no no i'm not getting married...my band's gonna compete later at 7...at the youth park in somerset...anyone supporting us? i'm feeling very very nervous now...had a sound check at 2 juz now...wasn't that bad...but we were a bit messy...came in at the wrong beat and all...and we heard darius' band...the alicia keys of singapore...honestly i think daphne's betta...no offence but she went out of tune juz now during the sound check...
wahaha suddenly i'm feeling very high...muz be the yeo's chrysanthemum tea i drank...*bounces up and down* hehe
gonna wear the long sleeve t-shirt sherwin gave me...coz everyone's wearing white or black and i wore blue...first reaction i received was: "damn ah beng leh!" kaoz...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, January 15, 2003-)
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ok someone's complaining abt updating my blog *looks at lianne* no no i'm not referring to u...hiak hiak...
well nothing much happened lately...after i've recovered frm my sickness, now's my mum's turn to fall ill...feeling so guilty for passing the flu to her...=(
been feeling so tired lately...yawnz....*blinks*
still trying to get used to my new class...i miss my old class...*waves to the gang* u guys miss me?? sob...
tml gonna go jogging~ after a long long time of inactivity we finally hav our 'sports event' again...and it's marcus' invitation! how to deline his request rite?
ok gonna rant abt my sis again...she spent $22 on a stupid vcd of sammi cheng's concert!! when everyone is working to pay off bills and such she's spending her money like we open a mint...damn....ask her to lower the volume and she went "oh it's so soft already!" crap i'm listening to mp3 and i can hear her music so darn clearly...and my mum's sick...why cant she even co-operate? grrr....
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, January 07, 2003-)
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finally went to see a doc this morning...it seems i hav a throat infection...and i'm feeling terrible...ugh...somebody kill me!
shld hav seen the doc yesterday...so i could get a mc for yesterday...asked the doctor juz now if i can hav the mc for yesterday as well and he said it's against the law...nowadays doctors are very obedient to the law...^^;
feeling nauseous...this is bad...
so then...what's next in life?
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(Monday, January 06, 2003-)
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argh...falling sick sux...my temperature's rising...it was 38 degrees celsius this morning and it's risen to 38.8 now...i feel terrible...*groan*
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Saturday, January 04, 2003-)
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thnx guys..for giving me advice and all...esp cherie...thnx dear...we've come so far together and i think u know me best...honestly i cant even remember when did we exactly meet...it seemed so long ago...actually onli ard 3 yrs back yah? no wait...1999-2003...wow 4 yrs already?! haha...
and also ryan...thnx dude for being my listening ear...and giving me such a strange yet cute anatomy...
to the gang (leroy, neil, hushie, jenny, jasmine, marcus,ewan): hey thnx for being my pals...
thnx for all ur advices and all...and i've made up my mind already...it wun be changed...i wun push her anymore...not even a slightest bit...i'm giving up...
the story ends like this;
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(Friday, January 03, 2003-)
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woo hoo~ had a great time today...let's see wad did i do...
10.30am - woke up and realised that i hav a meeting starting in 15 mins' time! so that means i'm super duper late...so then by the time i reached school i was 1.5 hrs late...and how nice...aniwae exchanged christmas gifts with mei qi...i owed her that present..thought it's a bit too late but hey there's 12 days of christmas isn't it...
1.30pm - meeting ended and went buona vista to look for the gang...left the pool at ard 3...did i mention that hushie looks like a hotdog now? red all over...then went ktv with ryan, hushie, cherie, jasmine, marcus and yongsheng(these 2 came later)...leroy and ewan apparently went on a makan spree...the holland village fish head bee hoon is too irresistable for them haha...
9.45pm - departed frm temasek club(where the ktv was) and reached home at 11 plus...i alighted at woodlands mrt station and walked home...needed time alone to think and reflect upon my life...i like doing that...and somehow i've been thinking a lot abt me and her...wondering a lot of things between us...so then i msged her and we agreed to come online and tok...
thnx guys for listening to me and my problems...well not really problems but my thoughts and troubles...appreciate it a lot...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, January 01, 2003-)
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ignoring the post below...
the story ends like this;
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+11:23 AM]*
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sometimes i wonder if she and i are gettng anywhere...we're juz well drifting apart...i've tried making a move but there's no response frm her...i guess she's slowly understanding that she's liking me as a fren onli i guess...i feel dumb....ha...here's a girl that briefly walked into my life and briefly got out...love sucks...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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