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(Thursday, February 27, 2003-)
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was supposed to go sch today but well didn't feel like it...ended up studying at home...browsed thru abc and cell culture...need to buck up on instru and cell culture...*sigh* hav to drop by sch tml coz i still dunno the exact date and time for the various tests...
so then...what's next in life?
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(Wednesday, February 26, 2003-)
+10:23 PM]*
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feeling darn down lately...and nope it's not due to the jamx finals...juz some thoughts abt my life and such...*sigh* upon looking back i felt like i've not achieved much in life...done nothing much too...didn't excel in studies and didn't excel in relationships...and i dun really hav any true frens in the past either...everything i've been involved is a failure really...mainly becoz i didn't put in effort...mainly becoz i'm lazy...or mainly becoz i'm a failure...born loser...damn it...
recalled some reprimands i received...and one recently frm jenny...and i think wad she said is true...i said that she knows me best and she said,"yah u are beyond hope" and come to think of it...yah i'm really beyond hope...lazy...late for classes...nv study for tests...it's really time i did some self-reflection...and put an end to all my nonsensical acts...it's time i grew up...time to mature myself...mentally and psychologically...sorry to all for putting up with my nonsense...been so immature, childish and even a jerk at times...so sorry...
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, February 25, 2003-)
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now a bit late liao but aniwae here's my elvish name~
Elrohir Ancalim�
cool huh? hiak hiak... now's my hobbit name...
Drogo Knotwise of Michel Delving
diaoz...this is so LOTR type...i wanna be Frodo Baggins of the Shire~~
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+7:35 PM]*
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been trying to study but there's too much temptations at home...argh~ anyone studying in school or not? *sigh* sianz...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, February 24, 2003-)
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oh did i mention that she went there to watch me too? haha received her sms juz before i went up stage...think it gave me the extra support i needed...=)
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+2:09 AM]*
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woo hoo! it's finally over! JamX finals are over and though we didn't win the top 3, i'm juz glad we got into the finals...a whole list of people to thank...
to the gang (in alphabetical order) cherie, jasmine, jenny, leroy, pei shan, ryan: thanx for the support and coming down to watch us...u guys are the best! *hugz*
to my meis jing, feiya, fave, sabby, cindy, who came: thanx a million for coming although fave didn't come but i know u tried to tune in to the radio XD and also to jing for lending me her x japan guitar...might hav to borrow it frm u again for some recording stuff...but dun worry...i'll head down to ur place to get it...or else u'll hav to carry it ard again...sorry sorry...
to frens who went, mel, lianne, victor and the guys from TCZ, eric, shimin, qiqi: thanx for dropping by! u guys gave me great moral support...
to those that didn't go (aka marcus ewan and neil): ur heads will roll when i see u...hehe =p
to The Original Replicas: a big hand to all of u and u guys did very well...and emman u didn't screw up the thing ok?dun take it too hard upon urself...the guitars screwed up too coz our amps weren't loud enuff...so cheer up dude ^_^ and to jeremy(boss) thanx for all the guidance and such...i learnt a lot frm u and the others....to dafie and reb: u girls rock! girl power~ haha getting cranky now...well hopefully we'll still be able to get together as the original replicas...take care guys~
to all others i left out (i hope not...): thank you thank you and thank you...
as i think back i realise we've come quite a long way...and it all ended...juz like that...playing in the middle of orchard road is such a different experience...it's like a dream...without the pretty girls surrounding u part...oops did i juz said my deepest fantasy?
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, February 19, 2003-)
+11:36 PM]*
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JamX Finals Update
time has been changed to 6.30pm for the performance by The Original Replicas so muz be on time k?
so then...what's next in life?
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+10:30 AM]*
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feeling damn pissed now...juz got slammed by 3 girls at the same time...i was juz asking a question and ta-da i got slammed...
to cherie, jenny, jasmine: i dun mind getting slammed but dun give me that kind of "what's ur problem" stare and look...and with that kind of tone...i dun like it...and nobody likes it...i was juz asking a damn question and wad's that kind of response for...i wasn't joking ard or fooling ard...i was asking a proper and damn question and if that's the response u give then that'll be the kind of response u'll get from me when similar questions are asked...that is if u think it's a normal response to such a question...
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(Tuesday, February 18, 2003-)
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now in the com lab...i am so sian!!! juz printed out the chords for cant take my eyes of you and perhaps...and ah xue came into the room! diaoz~ she's supposed to hav an itp test now...and she walked in to talk to me...haiz i dunno wad to say to her...feels weird and strange...and yah as leroy said "hai fang bu xia ah?" *sigh* yah think i still cant let go...argh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i need help in stringing an electric guitar! i hav no experience with electric guitar...diaoz...
so then...what's next in life?
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(Monday, February 17, 2003-)
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Venue: The Heerens
Time: ard 7pm (that's for our performance)
so all ye supporters do drop by ya?
jing: hey gotta borrow ur guitar again...so sorry for the trouble caused...maybe i'll drop by ur place on fri?
msged a few people telling them abt the finals...and i msged ah xue too...think i still cant let go of it...*sigh* takes time i guess...oh my destined one! where are u?!
so then...what's next in life?
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(Wednesday, February 12, 2003-)
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whoa recollection of yesterday...had my first gl physical training yesterday and it's crappy coz onli 1 person brought sports attire and a lot of absentees too...think i forgot to tell them that they can be excused for 3 times onli...hmmm...
but aniwae had a mini-lecture and i guess i was kinda pissed that nobody actually bothered to read the notice board...worse still, some say it's too troublesome to go up to level 6 to read 1 notice...rite...if they find such stuff tedious then they shouldn't be in gl at all...the next person that's gonna say this i'm definitely gonna lecture them like crazy...such attitude...haiz...then when i posted the list of those that passed the interview everybody so enthusiastic to go up and look at it...wad kind of rubbish is this...
some had a good attitude though...but some cant be bothered...i cut short the deadline for submission of excuse letter...some hav to submit it to me by today...if not it's bye bye for them...i hav to be strict in my actions frm now on...coz everyone is taking me for granted...shape up or ship out...
gonna do my log book and study for my test later on...argh~ leroy ryan and i finally decided to go for the rose selling business...but details are still not out yet...*sigh* muz finish the discussion by today...
an interesting note: i forgot to mention that my mum named one of my tortoises Xiao Xue...and that was a yr ago...-_-;; juz remembered abt it coz my mum was calling xiao xue and she picked the tortoise up...diaoz...
so then...what's next in life?
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(Monday, February 10, 2003-)
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it was my dad's birthday today! and was supposed to work full shift today but thankfully my manager is really kind...=) after work went to carrefour's bengawan solo to get a mango cake and then went back and got kfc family feast by order of my mum...i am so broke now i tell ya...but then it's worth it...
darren msged me this morning asking me if i wanna buy any roses or tulips for valentine's day frm him coz his uncle is selling it...and i dunno..suddenly i got reminded of ah xue...haiz...butaniwae as i was saying...his uncle is selling at $6 per rose, as compared to the market price of 3 for $25...so anyone interested can tell darren or i help to relay the msg...
love is cruel and yet beautiful thing, ain't it?
so then...what's next in life?
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(Thursday, February 06, 2003-)
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recollection of events yesterday...
went to this talent search company with my fren...she was spotted by a talent scout for this company called options talent group...it's e franchise for the world famous talent scouting agency who scouted backstreet boys, 'nsync and o town...she was so scared that it's some ulu cheating agency then she insisted i accompany her...so aniwae we went down to china square at 7 pm on tues and went up to the place(so damn hard to find...some ulu place opposite china square...)...and there was this aussie that gave a talk which my fren barely understood...hehe...sat and stoned frm 7 to 8.30 watching videos and videos abt the company...but got pretty girls to see though...got scouted so they're not bad u know...finally the whole thing ended at ard 9 pm...reached home at 10.30 and slept at 3 becoz of the stupid human comm assignment...*sigh*
back to today...
played table-tennis with leroy, cherie, jenny, marcus and victor aka mini-me aka stitch(when did this name come out?) had a fun timeplaying with roy coz very fast then unknowingly got challenged by 2 guys frm ece course...whoa...and for the first time ever, leroy played the proper way of doubles...and i haven played doubles since sec sch! fumbled here and there but towards the end realised that we were quite on par with them...haha something stupid here...
challengers: err can we join u?
leroy: (to the challengers) sure sure...err are u guys pro or sch team or wad?
challengers: no..
leroy: oh good, but we both are!
eugene: yah he china team i national team...
had quite a sucky day after that...coz of some events happening here and there...minor minor ones but it does somehow affect me i guess...and jasmine slammed me! she slammed me! and i slammed her back! ok e last part is definitely impossible coz there is absolutely nobody that can slam her...i mean...look at her size! oops...haha sorry =p
so then...what's next in life?
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(Wednesday, February 05, 2003-)
+2:11 AM]*
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*sigh* did something silly...i finally asked her whether does she still like me or not...if not pls tell me honestly coz i dun wanna keep guessing wad's on her mind...i dun wanna wait in vain...
10 mins later...
*beep beep*
xue: err can tok online?
me: eh sis using com...meet up tml instead?
xue: tml i need to do some work..vb stuff..
me: ok u wanna tok on the phone or wad...
5 mins later...
*beep beep*
xue: erm sorry for making u wait...i think i like u more as a fren...can we still stay as gd frens?
me: *speechless for a while* i dun mind...cannot be lovers can be frens rite...
and therefore, my point being...
the "ah xue" era is over... we hav no hopes of being together anymore...actually i dun feel that sad as i expected...coz i've already expected it...how shld i say...i got the feeling that she's not my destined one i guess...*sigh* and she's my gl, same hi club sub com...dunno how to face her and with wad kind of feelings...as frens, or superior and subordinate or cca-mates...actually the feeling kinda died down on my side too...did not feel the pinch...juz basically stoned for a while...ah heck...give me 2 weeks...no no 2 days and i'll recover...but i'm glad that at least we made it clear to each other rather than dragging things on and getting nowhere...neither of us were wrong, neither were right either...*sigh* but hey i still got the gang and my frens...it's not the end of the world...it's juz the end of one chapter....like the wanton chapter...thnx guys for the advice and support...dunno wad would i become if u guys aren't here...walking zombie i guess...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, February 04, 2003-)
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i msged her again, asking her abt the invitation and guess wad she said? "oh sorry for the late reply...forgot abt it...erm i wun be free on that day coz i promised my frens to go out with them..." one look and u know it's an excuse...yeah guess i'm gonna spend vals like any other day...go sch, go home, eat and slp...cool huh?
i guess it's beyond hope...officially...
"the reason why we guys are dim is becoz u girls are so hard to fathom.."
so then...what's next in life?
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(Monday, February 03, 2003-)
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finally asked her out for vals last nite but she replied, "can i ans u tml? quite busy now..." and it was at 1.05 am...
now waiting for reply frm her...if until 12 am i still didn't receive her reply, it means everythings over...
so then...what's next in life?
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(Saturday, February 01, 2003-)
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Gong Xi Fa Cai~
stoning at home today...not planning to visit relatives at all...coz not on gd terms with them since my grandpa's death...*sigh* no red packets again...it's boring staying at home...anyone free can ask me out...i'm so so bored...
so then...what's next in life?
the story ends like this;
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