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(Saturday, December 27, 2003-)
+3:56 PM]*
# Leaving on a coach bus ^_^-
Yes! I'll be keaving for KL in 5 hours' time...feel excited and yet a bit uneasy, cos never really left the country without my parents before...and can't bear to leave also...=P
woke up at about 9 am today...was supposed to meet dear for breakfast at 9 but both of us overslept...haha so then we met up at 10 at jurong east and had mcdonald's breakfast...^_^ bliss...then sent her back home for work...wanted to wait for her then bring her to work, but she insisted I go off first, cos her workplace is just beside her flat...so then after she went up, I walked towards the bus stop...minutes later, I hear someone running behind me and it was her! haha she said it was still early for work, so wanted to keep me company for a while more...^_^ thanks dear, really touched this incident...^^ so anyway we chatted till about 11.50 am then she had to go for work...and I said i'll wait for her downstairs to bring her to work...then we had a little tug of war there cos she wanna send me to the bus stop...then i insist to bring her home then bring ehr go work...haha so then i 'sa jiao' a bit then she gave up and i won..^^ haha sometimes muz be firm to get things done your way...=P
*sigh* 3 days...seems short yet long...i'll probably call home every night and also call her too...*sigh* dearie, i'm gonna miss you...i'll call you at night k? perhaps ard 11+...i'll bring your t-shirt with me there...^^ I really enjoyed this morning...it was short but eventful...heh...muz miss me yah? ^^
was supposed to go for poi ching primary's closing ceremony but don't think I have the time...*sigh* have to go to school and measure my plants before I leave for KL...work work work...argh! oh yah, I haven't let my mentor sign the attachment evaluation yet...-_- have to wait till I come back...*groan*
watched scary movie 3...it was funny but not as expected, cos some parts got cut off...and some jokes they said the audience couldn't catch it well...but it's really damn funny...like the bowling balls and Jesus part...lol must see it yourself...heh
anyway gotta go now...see you guys when I return on the 30th! dearie, don't forget k? 11+ ah...^^
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(Friday, December 26, 2003-)
+1:54 PM]*
# Happy Boxing Day!-
heh Happy Boxing day everyone! *bish* ^_^ Anyway had an enjoyable Christmas this year...though didn't get to celebrate it with the gang like the previous 2 years...
yesterday woke up at 8.30 am thanks to Michael's morning call...was supposed to do banner with him at 10 am...so then dragged myself out of bed and got out of house...halfway to ngee ann, realised I forgot the Christmas present I bought for her...*slaps forehead* so took cab back home and got it...then took cab back to school...-_- reached school at about 11+ am then found michael sleeping outside the clubhouse...haha then finished the banner at about 2 pm...after that, went to choa chu kang to meet the alan they all to have the steamboat at his house...then I went to get the tickets for a movie later that evening...watching with her...^_^
so, atmas, alan, wan hua, michael, dan xian, janice and me went to get the stuff for the steamboat...bought a lot of stuff then went to alan's place...but it rained...then my shoes all drenched...-_- sad case..we stopped over at his grandma's shop for a while before moving on...then her grandma offered us umbrellas...it was nice...but then the umbrellas had cockroach eggs on them...-_- but better than nothing...thanked her for the offer and then moved on to alan's place...
reached there at about 6...then hung around for a while and I left...without eating the steamboat...-_- diaoz so walked all the way back and went over to choa chu kang mrt...then my shirt was wet so dropped over at giordano to get a new t-shirt...I needed one anyway...heh...
then she reached at ard 7...haha so nervous to see her...=p and we exchanged presents...she gave me this milkboy t-shirt...haha cute...i'll bring it to malaysia with me...then we watched LoTR together...and...haha I'll skip the details...wanted to send her home but she didn't want...cos it was getting late...then she wanted me to go home early...=) anyway i enjoyed myself last night too dear...thnx for your t-shirt! ^_^ glad you liked my present...^^
anyway she wanna keep a low profile, so those who know who she is, please don't tell anyone k? no sharing or friendly talk business ah...^^ thanks guys...
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(Wednesday, December 24, 2003-)
+2:27 PM]*
# Feels like a dream...a good one...-
the past few months felt like a dream to me...so many good things happened to me that I can hardly believe it...of course bad things still happened but too many of good makes you feel that why did you get so lucky? I felt lucky and now I'm in a good dream...a very good one...
today's Christmas eve! Advanced Merry Christmas to all! last night went to Amy's place with the Mystique group and several other SGLs...had an enjoyable time over there and we drank red wine after most of them left...*sniggers* played sevral rounds of mahjong and halfway through the game we realised we've been playing in the opposite direction...:lol: can't believe it...after so many years of playing mahjong...haha...
having my house warming now...most of them are my mother's colleagues, so just said "hello auntie" to them over and over again...with the exception of 2 of her colleagues who are only 17 this year...michael might be coming later, I think...unless he needs to do his banner thingy...
been sleeping late recently...and she too...haha always can't sleep and i'll be entertaining her till she falls asleep...this kind of feeling is great...I hope this goes on for as long as it can...
i'm in a good dream right now...a good dream with you...and hopefully I won't get to wake up...=p
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(Sunday, December 21, 2003-)
+3:39 AM]*
# Unexpectedly...-
^_^ today is a special day...after almost a month of free and easy life, again I'm 'bound'...lol...today's a really special day...^_^ make the guess yourself...
anyway we had a bbq with several of the staff of TLL, ryan, hushie, elijah, his younger bro and me at wan jun(sp?)'s house...very ulu and it was raining like crazy all the way...so in the end, we barbequed in the rain...lol...reminded me of LSCT Sentosa camp...
it was then that i got her reply...and was happy like mad, i tell you...shared the news with ryan, hushie and elijah...^_^ they seemed happy for me too...thanks guys...
I do hope everything will end up fine for us...thanks for all your blessings, if any...
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(Friday, December 19, 2003-)
+12:23 PM]*
# Dang, a screw up-
I said it to her, in my semi-conscious state. And she didn't reply after that. Initially I already thought I had no chance, but this double confirms it. -_- Stupid me. Anyway even though she didn't give me a reply, I already knew the answer. *sigh* Oh well, fate. Resigned to it. As I look back, I realised I've been caught in situations like this way too many times. Maybe it's just me. Maybe.
Anyway today is the last day of my attachment! Whee! After work, we're gonna celebrate Jenny's birthday. ^_^ Look forward to meeting everyone again. Been a while since we met.
My Gunbound contacts are erased! Argh! For those who's reading this, please add me again. Nick: guardian84. Thanks!
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(Tuesday, December 16, 2003-)
+12:45 PM]*
# Another Typical Day..-
Crap, yesterday my mentor suddenly appeared at 3 pm, then suddenly gave me things to do at 4.15 pm...sianz half...then in the end had to stay till 6.15 pm to finish up the work before heading to city hall to meet ming hui for the movie...anyway met jiaqin there...crap keep disturbing me...haha
initially i wanted to get the 7.30 pm show at PS but it was sold out, so in the end we had to settle for the 8.15 pm show at Suntec City...I was so afraid it would be sold out too, but thankfully, there were still seats available...so I bought the tickets and later we met up to have dinner but only I ate, cos she just had buffet...*envy* speaking of which, it's been a while since the gang went for a buffet spree...heh waiting for leroy to return and organise...^_^
so the show lasted till 11.55 pm...and i feel bad having to make her take taxi home...so waited with her for taxi, and she kept chasing me to go catch the last train...so after she boarded, I went back into Suntec City to get to the station but it was closed. Damn! So I had to take the long way to the MRT and in the end, I was late by a mere 5 mins...the last train to Kranji was 12.10 am...argh! Make me walk for nothing...haha then ming hui called me to inform she reached home already and there I was, still in City Hall...-_-
anyway, the show was really nice, with a few cut scenes involving Merry and Pippin, and a few here and there...it's really really nice...now waiting for the Return of the King...*sniggers* Gandalf has got a case of mixed up identity, I would say. ^_^
"I am Saruman, or rather, what he would have been, if not driven by his insanity."
"Gandalf? Ah yes, that was what they used to call me. Gandalf the Gray. I, am Gandalf, the White!" -Gandalf the White, Two Towers
My cable is finally coming today...I am so excited! Heh...look forward to going online...and I'll declare my arrival loudly...muwahahaha just kidding...^_^ Oh and anyway, don't mind my previous post, Dianne *laughs* surprisingly you didn't defend yourself eh? Hahaha anyway do drop me an email sometime alright? And for crying out loud, get yourself a blog or something...*looks around at all the puzzled faces* =p you guys won't understand...heh
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(Monday, December 15, 2003-)
+1:15 PM]*
# Lucky, or not?-
Haha it's rare I blog twice in a day...but anyway I just know that my mentor isn't gonna be here today! *maniacal laughter* which means...I can leave early to get the tickets for Lord of the Rings: Two Towers. Really scared it'll be sold out. It's the extended version, just in case you're wondering. Anyway, I'm watching with Ming Hui later, cos she didn't watch the first 2 part and I wanted to see the uncut version as well. We watched the Fellowship last Monday and it was a freaking 3 hours and 10 mins long, I think. Well worth it, and it's weird to watch LoTR after watching the Matrix. Very difficult to change the image of Agent Smith becoming Elrond, the Elven Lord of Rivendell.
Anyway, back to today. I woke up at 9 am! Can you believe it?! Well, actually, it's pretty normal for all those that know me well. I'm famous for sleeping late and waking up late during attachment and school days as well. Heh. My alarm clock, aka my dog Phoebe, actually didn't come and lick, I mean, wake me up on time! Darn. I think I hung out too late last night. We went to celebrate Janice's birthday last night with Eunice, Atmas, Dan Xian, Amy, Gary, Qiu Rong and not forgetting Michael and several of Janice's outside frens at this karaoke pub in Tanjong Pagar and I reached home at 2.40 am.
Can you imagine the situation: you reached home, having down 2 glasses of vodka courtesy of Michael (thank God I can hold my liquor well), and then you arrive at home, wanting to sleep, but the walking about has kept you awake and you can feel the adrenalin pump inside you. So you change your clothes, took a bath and sat down on your computer. After 15 mins, you decide to sleep, but you don't have a bed and the only thing comfortable was your thick comforter, but it has got the urine of your little cute doggie. ^_^ And so you sleep, fitfully, waking up every half an hour or so, and soon, day breaks and you realise you're late. (Now, here's comes the lucky, or not part)
You take a cab, and rush all the way here, spending $12.90 on the cab fare, only to realise your mentor wasn't gonna be here today. *slaps forehead* Good Lord, bless this poor soul *puppy eyes*
Anyway, the above was written purely, and absolutely, because I'm just plain bored with nothing to do. Ugh. Sue me. =p
Just in case some of you might be wondering, err yeah I went to fetch her at the airport the other time. Then again, sue me. ^_^
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+12:19 PM]*
# Hurtful Misunderstanding: Gone with the wind. ^_^-
Ok ok, we have all resolved our misunderstanding with each other...but something still bugs us and that is the identity of the person who tagged in alan's chatterbox under the name lsct. I understand that everyone has the freedom of speech these days, but I do hope that with this matter resolved, everything can revert back to normal. And expressing your point of view behind an anonymous name isn't helping the situation. Thus, I would like the request that the person step out and reveal him/herself.
Everyone is attempting to deal with the after effects of the misunderstandings that happened...everyone shooks hands and made peace...and I think I should explain about my previous post...the last part about being free...I was actually thinking of stepping down...but everyone just wouldn't let me 'die in peace'...lolz I'm really touched by their words and actions...and their 'democratic' nature of deciding not to let me leave...I tell you, I'm working with one of the best bunch of people ever...wait, I think I said this during the previous FOC as well...^_^
to my main committee: I feel very glad working with all of you, and it really is an honour...frankly speaking, I did hesitate that meeting about stepping down...it was all because of your words and actions...you guys are the best, like you people once said out loud and proud. Let's all resolves our differences and make LSCT the best there is, yah? We~~~~~~~~~~~~~ lolz
We're not trying to scod you or what, but some people, especially wan hua and alan, are rather agitated by the words that you spoke. Please kindly come to either one of us, or you may declare openly, as long as you reveal your true identity.
And I found out about some interesting stuff last night as well. ^_^ Anyway, it's the past liao. Everyone is moving on with their lives. I wish you 2 all the best yah? *nudge nudge* eh you know who you are lah. Heh. Shhh....dun mention names. And surprisingly, how come everyone know I went airport ah? *sigh* When you're famous, everything you do is being revealed, even missing your aim in the urinal. lolz Just kidding lah. Anyway, I still wanna know how come everyone knows. Hmmm......we should start a spy agency in LSCT, I think. It's better than the CIA! haha
4 more days and I'm free from attachment! And I can dedicate all my time to department stuff liao. *sigh* I miss GL trainings. And best thing is........I got my new computer! After 5 freaking years stuck with pentium 1!! My cable is coming tml and so anticipate my return to the online community! *sniggers* Eugene is gonna be back, better, bigger and faster than ever.
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(Saturday, December 13, 2003-)
+12:48 PM]*
# Back to Normal. ^^-
Everyone settled their differences yesterday and I felt a heavy stone being lifted from my back. Everyone had a misunderstanding or so with each other, and I'm glad we resolved it.
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(Tuesday, December 09, 2003-)
+1:27 PM]*
# Stab Stab Stab-
Backstabbing and gossiping. You can never run away from these 2 wherever you go or whatever you do. You can be the culprit or the victim and most of the time, both. Isn't it funny, how people started off well with each other, honest and truthful, and then slowly, suspicion kicks in. The trust we once shared was lost. Who lost it first? I don't know. Perhaps me, or perhaps others. Events that happened, maybe, or disagreements?
I don't like beating about the bush or wishy washy stuff. I always liked putting everything on the table and clearing things out. I always like confronting people should I hear some unhappiness. But when I confront, I do hope the other party is honest to admit it, cos if he/she doens't, we can't solve things out clearly. Now, some of you may think, "what the hell is Eugene talking about?" Let me explain everything clearly then.
The night before the LSCT Camp, most of the camp committee members headed over to Sentosa. There, they decided to voice out all their frustrations and dissatisfaction, without me around, of course. And if you were to visit Alan's blog, you'll probably see a long post about him frustrated. And evidently it was targetted at me, especially that he quoted several quotes that I said. An blind man could see what he was referring to, yet he denied it was for me. It was for his astro pals, as he claimed. Don't get me wrong, I'm not doubting you, but it's just a bit hard to believe. And my sentiments are shared by some. Oh and did I mention that they did some gossiping and backstabbing after I left? Hmmm...
I must admit, that I had several concerns and dissatisfaction initially, regarding the camp and regarding the ompulsory thingy. I shared my views with the likes of Atmas and Michael. Frustration was what I felt, that the GLs had to be compelled for mistakes that we, the main committee, had done. It wasn't justified and unfair for them as well. In correlance to Alan's long, frustrated post, I think it would be better if I explained everything to them, once and for all, this coming Saturday. Several important announcements would be said, and hopefully the problems settled once and for all. Reagrding the issue of not offering advice, I suppose it's only that I wasn't updated of the happenings in the camp. My hand is offered to all, but have you ever asked for it? Same old advice? What other advice can I offer, if I do not know anything that's going on? You need help, I did what I could. I am a Man myself as well, just like you said you are. I do not know everything there is to the department, neither do I know about the Master Budget. And did I not pass Ryan's budget for last year? Then how do you justify that you did not have any budget to refer to?
I'm not angry or pissed by the backstabbing or gossiping, for I, too, have fallen short of the glory of God. I'm a sinner as well, and I have done this too. But, I admit things that I said, and deny those that have been twisted and misplaced into my mouth, whether on purpose or by accident. I never liked politics, not now, not ever. Too complicating. I enjoy a simple life and a simple mind. Call this escaping from reality, but doesn't everyone feel that way some time or another? The need for everything to be so simple and easy, without the hassles of the complicating inter-personal relationships. Things can be simple, but then we chose to make it a teeny weeny bit more complicated.
I've thought a lot for the past weeks and months. Perhaps, I should have made this decision long ago. Everyone has grown up and changed. How naive was I to think like before, wishing everything was actually the same like before. They are no longer the GLs I led, for they have all grown. For better, or worse, I shall not comment, as everyone's definition is different. I can no longer lead them, for should a person cannot be looked up upon as an individual, he cannot be looked upon as leader as well. They have lost their respect for me, and I am unable to earn it back. Favouritism and biasness, they claimed I had. But think of it, that if I had them, I would have done so long ago. Protecting a friend was something I had done not out of personal feelings, but out of a sense of setting things right. Second chances should always be given, like we have shown to many. But was this shared by them as well?
Man are subtle creatures, pinpointing even the slightest mistake others make yet not remembering the chances they had to proof their worth before. Lord, help me, for I am weary and tired from this journey. This journey that I should have never undertook but still did. I never regretted this, just a bit tad disappointed, I suppose, in both myself and the hearts of many. I can be shamed, booed, and even jestered upon, but one thing I detest strongly is the feeling of misunderstanding. Misunderstanding. Many ignore this and dismiss this easily, but it is through such misunderstandings that friendships are lost, and bonds broken. And especially from friends you thought were friends, and that the feeling was mutual, but it turned out otherwise. Betrayal is too strong a word to use to describe this, as many thought suitable. Perhaps, misjudge of character could be more appropriate in this context, for Man are fickle creatures.
I shall end here. And await for Saturday when the truth will come to light, and when I can be free.
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